I just don’t know what to do about it all anymore. I know I belong with her and I want it to happen, but I feel like it would just be what it was before. I want us to be together, smiling, laughing, holding each other like we used to. I don’t want the bullshit arguments or the dumb fights. I think we are meant to be together, but if we are then why did we ever split in the first place? Sometimes I just wish there was a rulebook for life and it would tell me what to right now. I still love her more than anything and I’ll wait forever even if it kills me.